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One sad thing about missing someone is that the pain can make you forget the wonder in what you’re missing in the first place.

I refuse.

It might keep my scars fresh, but daydreaming about you is far better than losing you to a story I construct to come out the winner.

I let myself miss you because it’s true.

I embrace your courage to live beyond the confines of your monsters.

I hear you laughing on the couch and it remains my favorite song.

And your eyes still stop me in my tracks, wherever your ghost finds me: up late at night, walking down 2nd, or sipping from my mug on Sunday morning.

Sometimes you lay next to me.

Sometimes we talk.

And sometimes your hand sneaks inside of mine.

Waffle, not pancake.

I think I fell for you because you still had that brilliant spark of adventure, curiosity, play, and freedom my inner child once knew.

I struggled to embrace that spirit, because I thought life had asked me to retire those colors.

But I found them, and when I rediscovered my heart, you were there.

I miss you
more than I’ve ever missed before.
I love you
more than warm sand on the shore.

Oh you’re so far away,
but I can feel you today.

I’ll leave the shades wide open
to let your light in.
Slip through the cracks
and underneath my skin.
It’s all I pray for with
hands across my heart:
On my knees daydreaming
in the dark.

I see you
in every corner of the world.
I wish you
were standing by the door.

The future’s far away,
but I can live in it today.

I’ll leave the shades wide open
to let your light in.
Slip through the cracks
and underneath my skin.
It’s all I pray for with
hands across my heart:
On my knees daydreaming
in the dark.

Love doesn’t know the word patience
when it’s fighting for forever.
Still wish it would hurt less
when I wake up from the future.

The days pass but I still remember that January joy,

my memory’s a minefield where bittersweet’s the pain employed.

I hold your ghost against my chest,

clinging against better sense.

When I remember you,

I can’t help but fall in love.

My wandering heart can’t choose,

like we were written from above,

from above.

Distance castes a shadow of blurred truth like Plato’s cave,

when a feeling’s form is stretched until it can’t be saved.

I hold your shape as if a lens,

looking at the past again.

When I remember you,

I can’t help but fall in love.

My wandering heart can’t choose,

like we were written from above,

from above.

I should just accept defeat

‘cause I don’t know which thoughts to trust,

but what’ll be left of me

if I let go and just give up?

When I remember you,

I can’t help but fall in love.

My wandering heart can’t choose,

like we were written from above.

They say time will heal me soon,

but every dream drives me to us.

My wandering heart can’t choose,

could we be written from above,

from above?

I loved you once,

can you love me twice?

I was a fool

to lose you for the first time.

I’ll give you all of me,

all of me.

I used to cry

laying by your side,

so I thought space

would heal my mind.

But it was a story

that cost me.

Forget the river,

I want the sea.

Forget the river,

you’re all I need.

Think my forever’s

just downstream.

Forget the river,

I want the sea.

And I’ll dive deep.

Still feel the rush,

swimming in your eyes:

the fire of a love

burning from the first time.

I’ll give you all of me,

all of me.

Forget the river,

I want the sea.

Forget the river,

you’re all I need.

Think my forever’s

just downstream.

Forget the river,

I want the sea.

And I’ll dive deep

into you.

Forget the river,

I want the sea.

Forget the river,

you’re all I need.

Think my forever’s

just downstream.

Forget the river,

I want the sea.

And I’ll dive deep.

I wrote you a letter

flying to New York,

trying to make peace

with a love that ran its course.

Can we be friends?

I think I can.

But can’t send my heart to someone else

when it belongs to you.

You’re the one I’m dreaming of

underneath the moon.

And it might take some time,

but my heart is sealed.

Can’t send my heart to someone else

when it belongs to you.

I wrote you a letter

flying to San Fran,

‘cause now I see

this love’ll never end.

Can we be friends?

Don’t think I can.

But can’t send my heart to someone else

when it belongs to you.

You’re the one I’m dreaming of

underneath the moon.

And it might take some time,

but my heart is sealed.

Can’t send my heart to someone else

when it belongs to you.

My pen is out of ink,

the pages leave no doubt.

And I can only sing

when my future’s in your mouth.

Another word,

another page,

a new city,

a new phase.

Another word,

another page,

a new city,

a new phase.

I’ve been crossing the street more carefully

since I realized

that I can’t die until I

hold you again in this life.

So many reasons I

should stay alive,

but you might be

my favorite why.

Won’t flatline without you by my side,

I need your light before I say goodbye.

You’re the future I can’t stand to lose,

No I can’t die without you.

Without you.

I’ve been tryna sleep more peacefully

since I realized

that I can see you in my dreams

more than real life.

So many reasons I

should stay alive,

but you might be

my favorite why.

Won’t flatline without you by my side,

I need your light before I say goodbye.

You’re the future I can’t stand to lose,

No I can’t die without you.

I’d die for you twice if God would let me.

I hope your eyes are the last thing I see.

Can I lay by your side before I leave?

Oh I’d die for you twice if God would let me.

Won’t flatline without you by my side,

I need your light before I say goodbye.

You’re the future I can’t stand to lose,

No I can’t die without you.

Without you.

What if we could be happy

holding hands?

Just sit beside me

in the grass.

Watch the leaves fall,

hear the wind call.

We can change while we dance,

don’t need to be apart.

Give ourselves a chance

to heal our hearts,

holding hands.

What if we could be happy

wasting time?

You can tell me

what’s on your mind.

Watch the sunset,

purge our regrets.

We can change while we dance,

don’t need to be apart.

Give ourselves a chance

to heal our hearts,

holding hands.

Our scars are in each other’s skin

and it’s scary to let you in.

But we can heal in each other’s arms,

to the beat of our two hearts,

holding hands.

I’ve been staying up late,

then dreaming of better days.

I’ve been working hard,

praying someday I'll heal these scars.

Oooh,

oooh

You might say that’s just how it is,

but I was born for more than this.

You can’t break me down,

call it a delusion.

You can’t break me down,

I call it being human.

You might settle for less,

but I know there’s more than this.

You can’t break me down.

Down.

I’ve been staying up late,

tryna make sense of this maze.

I’ve been working hard,

praying my pen will leave a mark.

Oooh,

oooh

You might say that’s just how it is,

but I was born for more than this.

You can’t break me down,

call it a delusion.

You can’t break me down,

I call it being human.

You might settle for less,

but I know there’s more than this.

You can’t break me down.

Down.

The monsters follow me in my head,

I turn around and scare them instead.

They want to make me fear, frozen in REM.

Now they’re stuck with me in the lion’s den.

Oooh,

Be a light in the dark,

Oooh,

Be brave and take heart.

Don’t hurt,

Even if it’s what they deserve,

‘Cause a nightmare’s a mirror,

Will you be the monster?

The monsters follow me in my head,

I turn around and love them instead.

They want to hurt me, but I call their bluff.

Maybe joy is ready to wake up?

Oooh,

Be a light in the dark,

Oooh,

Be brave and take heart.

Don’t hurt,

Even if it’s what they deserve,

‘Cause a nightmare’s a mirror,

Oh don’t be the monster.

Our monsters lose power

when we rob them of their sin;

to love our enemies

is to let healing begin.

Don’t hurt,

Even if it’s what they deserve,

‘Cause a nightmare’s a mirror,

No we won’t be monsters.

No we won’t be monsters.

Maybe joy is ready to wake up?